What’s the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word, ‘Grudge”? Every time I hear the word, it makes my heart cringe. One definition that explains this word in a nutshell is a “persistent feeling of ill will towards someone.” When we carry a grudge, we constantly think about it and it ends up becoming a part of our lives. Having a grudge is exhausting, Luke 13:10-12 gives us a great example of how it affect’s us both spiritually and physically.
“Now he was teaching in one of the synagogues on the Sabbath. And behold, there was a woman who had had a disabling spirit for eighteen years.”
Wow! This woman had a spiritual problem that physically disabled her… for eighteen years! Having a grudge is a spiritual problem. Some of us have held grudges for months and even years, and we only find it getting worse in our lives. You see, having something against someone else doesn’t change anything that they’ve done, it only ends up crippling you inside and out. It’s a spiritual impairment that holds you back from enjoying the blessings in life and seeing God’s goodness.
“She was bent over and could not fully straighten herself.”
What is in someones heart in any way, shape, or form, comes out into the open. Luke 6:45 reads this: “… for his mouth speaks from the overflow of his heart.” You might be able to keep your grudge secret in your heart, but the effects of carrying something so heavy and destructive will eventually come out in the open. Have you ever heard the saying: Carrying a grudge is like drinking poison and hoping for the other person to die. For this woman, we can see that she’s been carrying this spiritual impairment for so long, that it in fact, made her physicality worse.
“When Jesus saw her, he called her over and said to her, ‘Woman, you are freed from your disability.'”
What? Just like that, she’s free? It seems a little to easy when you think about it, but it involves trusting God. You see, when we carry something heavy like a grudge, we are not able to bear the physical and spiritual weight because of our sin. How can someone who is a sinner, hold someone else’s sin over their heads? By giving it to Jesus, we not only feel the freedom from that weight, but we are choosing to let God be the judge of our situation. Hebrews 10:30 reads this: “For we know him who said, ‘It is mine to avenge; I will repay,’ and again, ‘The Lord will judge his people.'” Your situation, pain, and grudge belongs to God, who better to trust then the one true judge.
How long have you been holding your grudge? In what ways can you conquer your grudge today? Choosing to let go of your grudge may not make the pain any easier to handle, but it stops the poison from spreading into other areas in your life. Trust in God’s righteous judgement, and allow Him room in your heart for His healing and forgiveness.